Happy Exam time everyone!

In total contrast to my last post, I am going to be positive today! And to start, can I just say the support I'm getting about going to vet school is overwhelming! I had absolutely no expectations for this blog and the page views for each post are outrageous! Who cares about this stuff? Of course I do, but you do too? Really? Well thank you so much! Secondly, I posted on Facebook after I pressed "submit" on my application. I was really surprised at how difficult it was. Did I edit my statement enough? Did I walk the line between 'please make an exception with some of my grades because of my back' and 'yes, I'm am healthy enough to come to your school'? How much is my superficial relationship with my references going to haunt me? Are my grades simply not good enough? My heart was racing just pressing the button. And then 20 or so lovely people 'liked' the fact that I did that, and supported me. That is just so heart warming. I haven't even done anything yet!

But I guess that's the point right? It's easy to believe in yourself after you've already gotten in. But can you have faith that you will throughout the whole process? Through multiple rejections? I am starting too. Sometimes I lament the fact that I didn't get my shit together earlier (I am in my 5th year) but then I think - I wasn't ready. I consider myself very mature but somethings just take time to work out. Plain and simple.

So now that I've put myself out there on all counts, is it going to be really terrible if I don't get in this year? To have those conversations with people telling them it didn't work out? I hope not. But I guess I will cross that bridge when I come to it.

I know I didn't get an award or anything, but I still want to say 'thank you' from the bottom of my heart to my references. It means so much that you would go out on a limb for me, believe in that first impression, and follow through to the point of saying I'm excellent and outstanding. For someone like me who adores praise, that is one big, fat gold star.

  

P.S. I just finished a book I got for my birthday, "Project Happiness" by Gretchen Rubin. It's pretty interesting and talks a little about gold stars and blogs. I'd definitely give it a read.